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Taking it slow/sticking to it/consistencyDoes that mean that you...

Sun, 26 Aug 2012 21:45:06 -0400

Taking it slow/sticking to it/consistency

Does that mean that you just do less of it, and less involved/passion/interest but it just lasts a longer time? Or does it mean that I’m just not cut out for it for certain things?

I’ve always been very bad with repetition. I lose interest really fast on things. Again, I guess I’m not being honest with myself, I tell myself that I enjoy it to keep on going with it, when I don’t. And by the time I realize that it’s not anything like it was when I started, I’ve just tricked myself so far that I hate it?

Is taking things slow or being consistent and sticking to things even one in the same?
I know that taking slows requires sticking to things, and being consistent but either one can require the other two.

Weird. I grew up looking up to those people who can stick to things. Maybe because I’m weak at it? And doing it the wrong way?
Maybe it’s because it’s the only thing my mom says she ever taught me, and I care a lot about what they say. More than what I think…

I need to improve on this. I need to again, be honest with my own feelings and just base them off of that. I’m mature enough now to not be ashamed for what my habits/preferences are. Some things are habits I guess… time will be a key factor to fixing it. Little bit at a time… take it slow

Hi (Taken with Instagram)

Wed, 22 Aug 2012 12:08:36 -0400

Hi (Taken with Instagram)

boom. Life. Why you so….. lolSo yeah I feel all numb...

Mon, 20 Aug 2012 00:14:25 -0400

boom.

Life. Why you so….. lol
So yeah I feel all numb inside. Life’s so complicated I just don’t want to give a shit about anything, and not get upset.

But owing money to the wrong people is not fun. And working with those same people that pretty much messed up your life.
I had a talk with the current CEO I work at… he told me I was naive and stupid. That’s all too correct. I trust people a little too much.

I hope lesson is learned. Last couple days in Toronto… what a werid couple months… *sigh*
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Ready... for school lol

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 06:53:24 -0400

So yeah, woke up at around 5:30 when sleeping at like 2:00
How often do I wake up within a couple hours right after I go to sleep? Never, except for now this one time lol.

Anyways, in those short hours I had this amazing dream that signifies a lot. There’s a little back story to this, I found out yesterday that I’m going back to school in September to continue my studies.

So the importance of this dream, that it’s one that’s happened before, but the result is very, very different.

First Time:

I guess it’s the start of a new school year or something. I was supposed to go to the elevator. I find myself running to it, jumping up and grabbing the inner ledge, and accidentally ripping off the little ornamental piece of drywall that seemed to have just been glued there. There’s a bunch of people all filling into an elevator, many beautiful girls :) I see somebody from my high-school that I was on good terms with. He started introducing himself around, but I didn’t say hi.

Getting out on the floor that I’m supposed it seems that I’m at my res floor. I walk around to find my room shared with 3 other guys. It seems to be some form of military school.
So lots of time passes and I regret everything that I did, and I walk past this single-person room. The room is very calm, peaceful, and everything I want… the guy’s life.

Second dream:

I’m rushing into the elevator, ripping the same drywall and I see the same high-school classmate. This time I say hello, and the guys getting off on the same res floor all get to know each other. I walk down the hallway towards the shitty room, do a double take on the room I just passed because my name was on this side room. I am SO HAPPY!
It’s exactly the way it was as the other guy had it at first glance. My high-school friend comes in to take a look as I’m still stepping into the room. I turn around to express my happiness, and we hear this somebody practising on a badly tuned guitar. I turn around to see my best friend, David. I didn’t know he was a part of this.
We start screaming … :)

There’s a couple details I left out, and a lot of this dream has a lot of symbolism, but not enough time to discuss all of them atm :P

I think this signifies the changes in my life, and it almost seems like a second time around, and I’m much more comfortable this time around. I felt alone the first time around and everything was unfamiliar, but this time instead of wanting the new and not noticing and appreciate the familiar I have, I have it with me, because it was there all along. Now I realize why it’s important and that I needed it.

Alright, time to make a BLT sandwich for breakfast!
I love that shit.

CLEANNN (Taken with Instagram)

Sat, 09 Jun 2012 20:49:12 -0400

CLEANNN (Taken with Instagram)

Large (Taken with Instagram at Smoke’s Poutinerie)

Sat, 09 Jun 2012 20:20:07 -0400

Large (Taken with Instagram at Smoke’s Poutinerie)

what the instagram&dowtown? (Taken with Instagram at George...

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 17:27:56 -0400

what the instagram&dowtown? (Taken with Instagram at George Brown Game Design Building)

Something’s out of placeI slept at 9pm last night because...

Sun, 20 May 2012 07:39:23 -0400

Something’s out of place

I slept at 9pm last night because I was exhausted, but woke up at 1 am and now have been just thinking about the future of life

I really feel right now how different my outlook is than before.
I understand myself better and what I want to do.

Short term goals:
Keep up with the workouts
Keep learning
Keep reading “How to win friends and influence people” by Dale Carnegie
Work with more focus
Start understanding my own time management better and get a second job and hopefully eventually do some part time school.

I really need to get a start on that personal site/blog
too bad boli.com is owned by like aegon becuase boli means bank-owned life insurance lol
I have big plans for it.
Going to build the backend in RoR and do lots of cool front end work :)

Economics/business and finance is starting to seem very interesting, even though I don’t like money and capitalism.

But I guess I can’t do much about it right now.

I also realized how important it is to know how to survive in the wild. I’m going to start doing some research on how to make an axe, chop wood, and make a house.
How to hunt lol.
Who knows what america is going to do? I’m honestly just going to run away into the woods if there’s a war. I’m not down to kill anybody/be killed.

anyways here I am at 7:35 AM.
Have to fix my laptop in an hour before the parents and I head over to the “cottage” lol haha

I plan on finishing my work, catching up on my cousera, take a nap and read some of my book. Maybe watch an episode of this drama I recently started watching called “Jia you gong po” lol

Yep :)

All while in the woods, with lake mississippi close by.

I’ve never liked music like this, but I like this, a...

Mon, 05 Mar 2012 02:56:04 -0500

I’ve never liked music like this, but I like this, a lot… Things have been changing recently. I’ve been really lost and don’t understand really what’s going on. One friend told me at the start of this term when i was telling her about how happy I was this term with all the things going on and how life was, that it’s okay to be unhappy.

I’m okay.

I really do see a difference tho. The smile I took so long to develop doesn’t really exist anymore. I still laugh tho, but things are… duller.
It’s okay I guess. I’ll get by and hopefully one day I’ll be able to get back that smile.

I think the biggest thing that comes to mind is that I don’t enjoy my music as much anymore. That’s why it was a surprise that I liked this, especially this. lol. Taste’s changing?

My company is doing better though, for now. Still a lot of obstacles coming up, and a lot to do. That’s good.
Let’s just get through this… I want to get inspired and excited about life again. I’m in a rut atm. I really don’t want to be, but I guess I don’t have a choice. I guess it’s times like this that show how strong-willed you are if you can do everything still.

until next time…

leggo

life

Sat, 14 Jan 2012 04:15:26 -0500

life is good, if you choose it to be so. So glad for the people around me and in my life. So glad for what I have. Awesome experiences and awesome memories created. Thank you everybody for being awesome. And once again, happy birthday Celina. Hope you remember it :)

HAI TUMBLR!!!YAYAYAYAYAY haha. So happy atm. So many things...

Tue, 10 Jan 2012 00:39:30 -0500

HAI TUMBLR!!!

YAYAYAYAYAY haha. So happy atm. So many things going on, but who cares?!
I’m happy and grateful for great roomates, a great family and awesome friends!

So moving to this new place in vaughan known as woodbridge, I thought it would be no man’s land - middle of nowhere. Little did I know. Restaurants galore! CANADIAN TIRE! Grocery shopping 15 mins walk!
toooo good!

Best part is… the basement is a home gym because the landlord is a personal trainer. She decided to train me yesterday. Kettle bells are intense lol haha

Work this term is kinda intense. GOnna work hard, go home and relax!
So i’ve done some stuff already this term I would have never do before in my life, but I don’t feel any different. I find that now I”m much more of a consistent person and learning moderation, slowly. Always has been a weaksuit. I’m glad it’s progressing.

Going to eat raw oysters on friday! LOL Dunno how that’s gonna turn out =0
BUt can’t wait for Korean Jajangmyun. For those who don’t know, chinese black been noodles is like my fav food. I heard the korean one was sweet… I LOVE SWEET FOODS :D

I can tell already I’m gonna love it.

Oh yeah, happy b-day SACHIES!

i'm a hobo

Wed, 21 Dec 2011 18:20:52 -0500

hi tumblr. So I was supposed to move into this place today then catch a flight in Toronto tomake other back home to Ottawa to fly to Cuba with my family for Christmas vacation. So the lady I was gonna rent from bailed on me… im now a hobo lol. oh the irony…

Hello, tumblr.Reflection time…How did this term go?Not so...

Sun, 18 Dec 2011 19:37:58 -0500

Hello, tumblr.
Reflection time…
How did this term go?
Not so well. Regrets? Nah…
What do I want?
Let’s break it down. Shorterm. Ace the next two exams, successfully move out, sublet out my place, make my flight to cuba and have a good time with my parents.
May I remember to have patience with everybody there and keep and open mind to relax :)
Next term I would want to make a android app, finish my project with my company, learn some algorithms and design structures, work out, eat right, live life the right way a little bit. Toronto exploring on the weekends, eat some good food, enjoy the snow and the cold.

=3
I’m excited.

What to improve on from this term?
Do what I gotta do first.

Life is moving along, and it’s beautiful when it does, but don’t forget that it doesn’t wait, but you may take a breather to get back on track. Keep the smiles on.

Herro tumblr. I have not blogged like I have before, dunno what...

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 12:13:13 -0400

Herro tumblr. I have not blogged like I have before, dunno what I was thinking but I wanted to create a cliche tumblr where you post pictures and ppl look and go ‘ooh’, ‘aah’…
Nah, that’s not me. It’s not me because I don’t believe in it and it doesn’t feel right. I miss blogging about my life and updating myself on what’s going on and having some perspective. To be honest, (maybe it’s not related) but after I stopped blogging I haven’t been as peaceful as before, maybe I don’t understand myself as well.

I think something that happens with me is that I love new things, I love change. Is it that I get bored of things easily? If so, is that just my personality? That’s interesting. I’ll focus on accepting things the way they are, and advancing in a good direction. That sounds good.

I’ve been having so many thoughts about my family lately. I like this. When I look back on things I really do realize that at one point, I did have a huge rebellious stage. lol. Nothing to be ashamed of… another part of life; Understanding myself… and others.

I’ve been in a very werid mood lately, and I haven’t been the nicest to my roomate who’s a very dear friend to me. I think I’m gonna focus on being nicer. I know it’s all jokes when I say degrading jokes (definately not as bad as I’m making it sound atm), but it doesn’t sit well with me. He’s an awesome dude, and he deserves some awesomeness.

I have so many things to be sorry for atm. I feel like my head belongs facing the floor. I’m sorry ______ for not being able to own up to you after the incident the time when we went to ceasars. What I would have done differently now that I look back (lol first is to go at my own comfort level) and second… I should have stayed at the place after and made sure the issue was resolved after. I knew I shouldn’t have left even though they said it was okay. I just wanted to get out of their hair.

I’m sorry Jay Chen for all the times I’ve said things that might have put you down or not been the nicest person. When I look back on things. You are actually the most honest person and true to yourself. You don’t try to be somebody you’re not, and you accept things they way they are. You are amazing. Hopefully we get to chill sometimes and I hope grad school is going well! (I’m gonna wish you this personally soontimes and not just on a blog nobody reads haha).

I am… absolutely sorry to myself. I realize I’m not very honest with myself and over-analyze and over-everything sometimes. I find myself in complacency and discouragement all the time. I need to get my head out of the air and come back down to earth. Work hard, less worries, be nice, do good deeds, accept life, be happy.

This week, I’m going to focus on working in trying not to put myself on a pedastle sometimes (even though confidence is good) but I need to be down to earth, and real with myself. Let’s do this. Focus, be accepting, don’t lie to myself.

Have a good day all!

underreconstruction: Sooo pretty.為甚麼永遠都是戀愛的季節？？我這苦命的單身兒

Tue, 01 Nov 2011 01:55:39 -0400

underreconstruction:

Sooo pretty.為甚麼永遠都是戀愛的季節？？
我這苦命的單身兒

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skotia: Némo Némo Némo!!! (by vinh161)

Wed, 19 Oct 2011 05:25:33 -0400

skotia:

Némo Némo Némo!!! (by vinh161)