Something’s out of place

I slept at 9pm last night because I was exhausted, but woke up at 1 am and now have been just thinking about the future of life

I really feel right now how different my outlook is than before.
I understand myself better and what I want to do.

Short term goals:
Keep up with the workouts
Keep learning
Keep reading “How to win friends and influence people” by Dale Carnegie
Work with more focus
Start understanding my own time management better and get a second job and hopefully eventually do some part time school.

I really need to get a start on that personal site/blog
too bad boli.com is owned by like aegon becuase boli means bank-owned life insurance lol
I have big plans for it.
Going to build the backend in RoR and do lots of cool front end work :)

Economics/business and finance is starting to seem very interesting, even though I don’t like money and capitalism.

But I guess I can’t do much about it right now.

I also realized how important it is to know how to survive in the wild. I’m going to start doing some research on how to make an axe, chop wood, and make a house.
How to hunt lol.
Who knows what america is going to do? I’m honestly just going to run away into the woods if there’s a war. I’m not down to kill anybody/be killed.

anyways here I am at 7:35 AM.
Have to fix my laptop in an hour before the parents and I head over to the “cottage” lol haha

I plan on finishing my work, catching up on my cousera, take a nap and read some of my book. Maybe watch an episode of this drama I recently started watching called “Jia you gong po” lol

Yep :)

All while in the woods, with lake mississippi close by.

I’ve never liked music like this, but I like this, a lot… Things have been changing recently. I’ve been really lost and don’t understand really what’s going on. One friend told me at the start of this term when i was telling her about how happy I was this term with all the things going on and how life was, that it’s okay to be unhappy.

I’m okay.

I really do see a difference tho. The smile I took so long to develop doesn’t really exist anymore. I still laugh tho, but things are… duller.
It’s okay I guess. I’ll get by and hopefully one day I’ll be able to get back that smile.

I think the biggest thing that comes to mind is that I don’t enjoy my music as much anymore. That’s why it was a surprise that I liked this, especially this. lol. Taste’s changing?

My company is doing better though, for now. Still a lot of obstacles coming up, and a lot to do. That’s good.
Let’s just get through this… I want to get inspired and excited about life again. I’m in a rut atm. I really don’t want to be, but I guess I don’t have a choice. I guess it’s times like this that show how strong-willed you are if you can do everything still.

until next time…

leggo 

life

life is good, if you choose it to be so. So glad for the people around me and in my life. So glad for what I have. Awesome experiences and awesome memories created. Thank you everybody for being awesome. And once again, happy birthday Celina. Hope you remember it :)

HAI TUMBLR!!!

YAYAYAYAYAY haha. So happy atm. So many things going on, but who cares?!
I’m happy and grateful for great roomates, a great family and awesome friends!

So moving to this new place in vaughan known as woodbridge, I thought it would be no man’s land - middle of nowhere. Little did I know. Restaurants galore! CANADIAN TIRE! Grocery shopping 15 mins walk!
toooo good!

Best part is… the basement is a home gym because the landlord is a personal trainer. She decided to train me yesterday. Kettle bells are intense lol haha

Work this term is kinda intense. GOnna work hard, go home and relax!
So i’ve done some stuff already this term I would have never do before in my life, but I don’t feel any different. I find that now I”m much more of a consistent person and learning moderation, slowly. Always has been a weaksuit. I’m glad it’s progressing.

Going to eat raw oysters on friday! LOL Dunno how that’s gonna turn out =0
BUt can’t wait for Korean Jajangmyun. For those who don’t know, chinese black been noodles is like my fav food. I heard the korean one was sweet… I LOVE SWEET FOODS :D

I can tell already I’m gonna love it.

Oh yeah, happy b-day SACHIES! 

i’m a hobo

hi tumblr. So I was supposed to move into this place today then catch a flight in Toronto tomake other back home to Ottawa to fly to Cuba with my family for Christmas vacation. So the lady I was gonna rent from bailed on me… im now a hobo lol. oh the irony…

Hello, tumblr.
Reflection time…
How did this term go?
Not so well. Regrets? Nah…
What do I want?
Let’s break it down. Shorterm. Ace the next two exams, successfully move out, sublet out my place, make my flight to cuba and have a good time with my parents.
May I remember to have patience with everybody there and keep and open mind to relax :)
Next term I would want to make a android app, finish my project with my company, learn some algorithms and design structures, work out, eat right, live life the right way a little bit. Toronto exploring on the weekends, eat some good food, enjoy the snow and the cold.

=3
I’m excited.

What to improve on from this term?
Do what I gotta do first.

Life is moving along, and it’s beautiful when it does, but don’t forget that it doesn’t wait, but you may take a breather to get back on track. Keep the smiles on. 

Herro tumblr. I have not blogged like I have before, dunno what I was thinking but I wanted to create a cliche tumblr where you post pictures and ppl look and go ‘ooh’, ‘aah’…
Nah, that’s not me. It’s not me because I don’t believe in it and it doesn’t feel right. I miss blogging about my life and updating myself on what’s going on and having some perspective. To be honest, (maybe it’s not related) but after I stopped blogging I haven’t been as peaceful as before, maybe I don’t understand myself as well.

I think something that happens with me is that I love new things, I love change. Is it that I get bored of things easily? If so, is that just my personality? That’s interesting. I’ll focus on accepting things the way they are, and advancing in a good direction. That sounds good.

I’ve been having so many thoughts about my family lately. I like this. When I look back on things I really do realize that at one point, I did have a huge rebellious stage. lol. Nothing to be ashamed of… another part of life; Understanding myself… and others.

I’ve been in a very werid mood lately, and I haven’t been the nicest to my roomate who’s a very dear friend to me. I think I’m gonna focus on being nicer. I know it’s all jokes when I say degrading jokes (definately not as bad as I’m making it sound atm), but it doesn’t sit well with me. He’s an awesome dude, and he deserves some awesomeness.

I have so many things to be sorry for atm. I feel like my head belongs facing the floor. I’m sorry ______ for not being able to own up to you after the incident the time when we went to ceasars. What I would have done differently now that I look back (lol first is to go at my own comfort level) and second… I should have stayed at the place after and made sure the issue was resolved after. I knew I shouldn’t have left even though they said it was okay. I just wanted to get out of their hair.

I’m sorry Jay Chen for all the times I’ve said things that might have put you down or not been the nicest person. When I look back on things. You are actually the most honest person and true to yourself. You don’t try to be somebody you’re not, and you accept things they way they are. You are amazing. Hopefully we get to chill sometimes and I hope grad school is going well! (I’m gonna wish you this personally soontimes and not just on a blog nobody reads haha).

I am… absolutely sorry to myself. I realize I’m not very honest with myself and over-analyze and over-everything sometimes. I find myself in complacency and discouragement all the time. I need to get my head out of the air and come back down to earth. Work hard, less worries, be nice, do good deeds, accept life, be happy.

This week, I’m going to focus on working in trying not to put myself on a pedastle sometimes (even though confidence is good) but I need to be down to earth, and real with myself. Let’s do this. Focus, be accepting, don’t lie to myself.

Have a good day all! 

underreconstruction:

Sooo pretty.為甚麼永遠都是戀愛的季節？？
我這苦命的單身兒